For the first time in a great while, I’m going to write about the Monochrome Trilogy for a few minutes. Some of you probably think I’ve forgotten about it, foregoing its story in favor of the shorter, bloody bite-sized chunks that the ULT series has to offer. If you’ve thought that, you’d be half-right. I have been focused on ULT lately—but I haven’t forgotten about the Monochrome.
I wish I could forget about the Monochrome. That won’t happen, though, because these days it’s haunting me. It hangs over my head like a cloud, and any time I get an idea for something else—like the next ULT story, for example—that cloud bears down a little bit, and I feel guilty for thinking about working on something other than the Monochrome.
TLM’s two-year anniversary is coming up. Two years! Can you believe it? It’s been two years since I left Donovan Candle standing at the top of the WBS network building, and in that time, my vision of what would follow has changed dramatically. For better or worse, I can’t say. All I know is that it’s changed, and while I have a much clearer picture of what NONENTITY will be, there are still so many pieces that remain hidden from me.
I find myself going back and reading through old entries and emails and notes just to see where I was in the months leading up to the beginning of TLM. Although I began TLM in January ’09, I spent most of that year meandering through the first third of the story. I had no idea where it was going, and it wasn’t until I re-thought everything at the end of that year that it all came into focus. Truth be told, TLM’s first draft may have taken 19 months to complete, but the bulk of it was written in seven. I needed the other twelve months to figure it all out.
I’m in a better place this time around—I’m a better writer, for starters. I have a better grasp on the story and its characters.
And yet I keep hitting a wall whenever I work on it. I have a very small portion of it written—those of you who’ve pre-ordered ULT: Volume One will have the pleasure of reading it soon—and I also have a great deal of notes written as well. I have chapter titles, I have themes, I have the makings of a playlist, and I have a chronological history starting with Dullington’s orgins and leading all the way up to the events of ALT. All the pieces are in place. So why am I hitting a wall?
I honestly don’t know. Right now that wall is my biggest obstacle. Maybe it’s pressure? Maybe it’s fear? Who knows.
I just keep thinking about those early days of TLM and how difficult they were, trying to figure out what it was that led to that moment when everything fell into place and the book took off.
Maybe I’m just over-thinking this too much?
Probably. In any case, thanks for listening. I just needed to vent.
Before I go: There are 17 days left to pre-order UGLY LITTLE THINGS: VOLUME ONE. If you’re planning on doing so, but you’re waiting for whatever reason, please let me know so I can plan accordingly.