Patience, silence, catharsis.

Once again I’ve fallen mute in recent weeks. To be frank, I haven’t had much to say or report on. On the book front, things are relatively quiet. I have an event coming up at my local library, an event for which I’m grateful even though 99.9% of you won’t be attending, but I’m sure you’ll be there in spirit. The event’s in mid-July, and I’ll post details soon for anyone in the area who might be interested in attending.

I’ve heard back from a couple of TLM beta readers. Their comments have been informative and very positive. The Betas still have until the end of June to finish reading it, so I’ll be a bit mum on details and editorial decisions until then. What I can say is that the comments so far have reinvigorated my interest in the story, and I’m looking forward to getting back to work with Amelia later this Summer. I know I’ve said it before, so I hope you don’t mind me being a broken record: If you liked ALT, then TLM is going to blow your fucking mind.

Getting back to my silence, there are a number of factors contributing. As I mentioned in previous posts, a lot of it is exhaustion. Looking back, I jumped from one book to another without really giving myself a break, and then following ALT’s re-release, I devoted several months to promoting the book in ways that I thought would work. Some ways did. Others did not, due to faults of my own, and sometimes due to circumstances and attitudes beyond my control.

The real clincher was in recent weeks when I tried to get into my hometown newspaper. I vented a bit about it on my Facebook page (something which, in hindsight, I probably should not have done). It boils down to the aged stigma of the “self-published novel,” and how most media outlets won’t give them the time of day. A few years ago, I would’ve agreed with it. I still do, in some ways, because there’s a lot of crap out there. However, after recent shifts in the industry, I’d hoped attitudes on that front regarding self-published works would have changed. I was sorely mistaken.

So, what happened that left a bad taste in my mouth is that a reporter from my hometown newspaper jumped to conclusions, assumed my book was just another self-pubbed work, and wrote me off with the usual “not our policy” spiel. Sorry, man. That’s not what I want. ALT might’ve been another self-published work at a point in time, but it isn’t now. It’s more than just something I threw together. There were more people involved with this one–well over 60, in fact, if you want to include the Kickstarter folks (and I do). It was professionally edited, the cover and various layouts were professionally designed.

I formed a company, I sought investors (again, you lovely Kickstarter folks), I hired the right people, and in the end, we worked our asses off to produce a book we believe in. I did everything any other publisher has had to do to get its start.

So, to write off my book as another one of the crap heap, I won’t accept that answer. I’ve worked too hard for you to shrug me off now, and I find it insulting that you would do so without even seeing the work in question.

I see now my simple post has become a rant of sorts. I’ll take that as my cue to stop. The bottom line is, if I’ve been quiet, it’s because I’m tired of the way things are going. After taking a few punches, I’ve felt compelled to step away from the publishing life for a little while before I have to get back to work on TLM. It’s for the sake of my own sanity and motivation that I do so.

This doesn’t mean I’m giving up writing or anything. I have plenty of ideas and plans. I really just needed some time off.

So, if you’ve read this far, thanks for listening. I guess I just needed to vent. I’ll post those library event details soon.